The only way is through

It's the same story

The misalignment

The laughter when all you feel is tears

And you know the laughter is dearly needed

The intense nausea when all you can do is climb back into bed

When you miss the joy of eating and making but you've lost your people and the joy is gone

When sharing anything feels wrong because it's too hard, too blue, and you wonder if sharing is helpful for anyone other than you

When love often feels clingy and distorted, destructive even

And you know that's not love

But you're wading through a heavy swamp and you wonder if you can see

You know that running and being reactive always needs to be checked

And you're getting better at it, habits changing

And you know they get angry when they can't have you in the way they think they want

And you know it isn't love

You know they can't see, their hurt is too thick

And you know the only way is through

The only way is through

And that is what you must do