sitting down while standing up...

I once started a voice journal thinking it would help me release feelings, often have a good cry. Or just get to the root of the matter so I could pick up and carry on. You know, eat food, hydrate, wash, etc.....

I don't listen to my recordings for the most part and I also delete them after too many accrue. It horrified me that post me someone would come across them and feel they should listen. The time they might spend, no no no awful.

Once I started a recording convinced I just needed a good sob, but what I did was take off on an hour long stand up (while sitting) off the wall hyper speed comic insanity. I was having a blast! Something I sorely miss right now.

I listened to my recording and cracked myself up for another hour. Good fun!

Sometimes when all is too heavy (and there's a stalker on the loose). When many feel they can reason with sociopaths. The definition of insanity. And the whole world is standing on it's head. There is nothing to do other than indulge in some harmless insanity of my own. After all I have spent much of my life trying to reason with sociopaths as well.

So screaming and singing, dancing and drumming and the odd hyper insane sit down comic relief one person show. Witnessed by one person as well.

Always accompanied by as much sobbing as wanted or laughing or screaming or whatever wants expression.